My Anxiety for Writing Letters

*Japanese ver

This year I wrote a few letters

And always, a certain "anxiety" was felt within me

Today I was reading a random book and came across the lines below

This is exactly the fear
I always feel before/during/after writing a letter

And this is exactly the reason
I always write a letter

"...........Rather than ignoring my fears of being wrong, of being disliked, or of how I might be perceived — nor do I pretend these fears don't exist —, I accept my anxiety as it is, and hold onto the belief that what I want to say matters for me and for him/her. And I put myself into words."

— Morita Shiomu (Watashi no mama sunao ni ikiru／2020) "

I feel unease. Because I'm conscious enough that letters are such an obsolete way of communication in this era when quick responses are the norm. I'm also get used to it, so that "Not knowing the receiver's reaction immediately" feels unease. Especially when I write rather long, rather confessional type of letters. But yet, there is something I want to tell them in the form of a letter. Thus I write a letter.