by axxxm
We have to meet others, because we don't know ourselves
3/January/2026
Blind Self. Meeting others. Let them know their goodness
I am Nameless
30/December/2025
I am Nameless, but...
My Anxiety for Writing Letters
30/December/2025
But there is something I want to tell them, thus I write a letter
手紙を書く不安
30/December/2025
'自分の不安をそのまま受けとめつつ、自分が伝えたいことは大事なことであるというところに立ち、言葉にする'
Happy Birthday
27/December/2025
Happy birthday to you
誰かの誕生日
27/December/2025
いつかどこか
Only Source of Happiness
26/December/2025
Proof of 'Human beings are social animals'
Kyoto: My emotional preparation
25/December/2025
I’m unsure if I’ve done my 'emotional preparation'
Books & Sociology & I am not alone
25/December/2025
Books & sociology widen and broaden my very limited perspectives
Phones disrupt our interactions
24/December/2025
Her phone is there. This mere fact ruins our concentration
Writing Fragments (17/July ― 24/December）
24/December/2025
some piece of writings
Reading is Listening
23/December/2025
I don't know her. I don't know him. But I'm still listening
Dating Apps
22/December/2025
Can't see a woman from dating apps as a serious relationship partner
imperfection is attraction
15/December/2025
Loneliness is attraction
Multi-Layered Smile
12/December/2025
Sadness, pain & tears behind
Blue — most distant colour
12/December/2025
Never there
心から「ありがとう」
11/December/2025
あの人に
My concern: Dating a Japanese woman
9/December/2025
Nobody can understand others to the degree everyone wants
Utmost Secrets
6/December/2025
as if I’m witnessing their most hidden secrets
Crossing Legs
6/December/2025
I don't trust people who cross their legs
Wall is crying
22/November/2025
Tears are for oneself, not for others
壁の涙
22/November/2025
涙は自分のために流すもの
My loneliness
21/November/2025
I am myself
Ukrainian women are kind
20/November/2025
This over-simplistic sentiment was felt again
Gestaltzerfall
18/November/2025
Fail to recognise their individuality
Live Report from a Cafe
17/November/2025
An episode
'Do not' or 'Do not want'
17/November/2025
I have to be careful
Too Much Emotions
16/November/2025
Some cultural differences
World is alive
15/November/2025
Everything
Mismatched
15/November/2025
Seemed a little out of sync with her aura
Sync
14/November/2025
I want to meet her a little farther away
Nobody is boring
12/November/2025
We must first ask a question
I'm happy but I miss loneliness
9/November/2025
I'm happy now but
Tears Cafe
5/November/2025
.....Why?
Reason for attracting to others' loneliness
5/November/2025
Loneliness, pain, hurt, sad or something fragile
The day she sees a 'real family'
3/November/2025
She was an adopted child
Writing & Painting, and Music
2/November/2025
Most dangerous type of art, Music
「書く」と「描く」
2/November/2025
文章表現には必ずこの処理が挟まる。時間がかかる。しかし時間がかかるからこそ、感情に深く入り込んでくる
Sadness for balancing
30/October/2025
I want to sink into sadness
Why am I still alive?
28/October/2025
As I get older, I see people passing away. And I wonder even more
Boring Question
26/October/2025
What do you think about AI? Ai takes over art? Will artists become jobless?
She is not cute but she looks cute
16/October/2025
Because of her fashion
2 Ways To Hide Oneself
14/October/2025
Be quiet or Be talkative
Fashion advice for men
12/October/2025
I know only what I want to wear
Men's boots
12/October/2025
Can’t looks as nonchalant as woman with boots
Ramen is sinful
11/October/2025
It is so irresistible and nobody can ever say No
Art is NOT self-expression
10/October/2025
Masturbation
Strange Nature of Literature
10/October/2025
Why novels can express 'Something the words can't capture'
言葉で表現できないもの
10/October/2025
過剰な言葉によって「特定」が不可能になる。そこから全体性（＝言葉で指し示せない何か）が立ち現れる
'I know myself better'
9/October/2025
The Decay of the Angel（1970）
She is too young to know
9/October/2025
amicable, politeness, hospitality
Social media de-stabilises our relationships
9/October/2025
There're many things we don't really have to know about him/her
Why are living existences so annoying?
6/October/2025
I can never be quiet, but instead, keep disturbing others
Egoism is an attraction
4/October/2025
Dante Gabriel Rossetti. Extraordinary egoism Extraordinary human
First Woman or Youngest Man
3/October/2025
The sound of her feels on the stone street. An implication of beauty
Sound of Women
2/October/2025
The sound of her feels on the stone street. An implication of beauty
Smile is a light
2/October/2025
in the middle of the mindless crowd
Students back earlier
30/September/2025
Atmosphere changed earlier
I feel woman
28/September/2025
He is a man and I am a woman
Men always escape
27/September/2025
There is nothing to make a fuss about
Środa
25/September/2025
She met her boyfriend through Facebook
About British people 3 — Nonchalance: How he said
24/September/2025
Nonchalance that only native speakers could give off
About British people 2 — Nonchalance: What he said
24/September/2025
Nonchalance vs. Over-thinking
About British people 1 — Small Communication
24/September/2025
I must've missed countless opportunities every single day in Poland
イギリス人について
24/September/2025
マイクロコミュニケーションとノンシャランス
About British culture
24/September/2025
Arrogance and nonchalance. Richness of British culture
イギリス文化について
24/September/2025
初めてイギリス文化というものに敬意を抱いた
あなたが好き
22/September/2025
あなたが好き
Woman in museum
22/September/2025
I’d like to be a friends
London（2025）
19/September/2025
I still love you but I can't go back. I don't want to go back
ロンドン（2025）
19/September/2025
戻ることを切望していた地
Her Friendliness is Her Defense
13/September/2025
She had such a pretty smile
The Scent of The End
12/September/2025
This relationship is coming to an end soon
Sadness
7/September/2025
beautiful narcissistic
Her arms, Her emptiness
5/September/2025
Attracted to her nothingness, her emptiness
腕
5/September/2025
雄弁な腕。空白／美 — 充実／空白
His Voice
31/August/2025
I like you. Only you.
艶っぽい声
31/August/2025
ギラギラした皮膚をもった蛇や、赤い照明と優雅に絡まる娼婦にもなれるかもしれない
Uncomfortable Touch
31/August/2025
A life lesson for me as a man
Cappuccino & Sugar bottle
28/August/2025
Her gesture was more than enough to brighten my day
We smile at the world. Unconditionally
27/August/2025
Humans beings are goodness
Stolen by her
27/August/2025
Steal the core beauty from reality
観察される恐怖
27/August/2025
ここには「手の実態」がしっかり描かれている。手の魅力の核心が描かれている。
Painters are thieves
26/August/2025
filter, distill, condense & fix
The proof from her mouth
25/August/2025
She is a human being. She is still alive
22 years
24/August/2025
I still like you
Emotional Virginity — Everything we express turns into a joke
22/August/2025
Once we express, everything turns into a joke
感情の純潔を守る唯一の方法
22/August/2025
オモテに出さないこと
Attending Mass
20/August/2025
Emotions are fleeting. But they keep, stabilise, establish it on their life
Summer Time Memory
19/August/2025
My memory is already tied to this flower
Words are chosen by life
17/August/2025
Our faces change based on our beliefs
my words
17/August/2025
I don't think I've been honest with other people
自分の言葉
17/August/2025
俺は人に対しては正直だと思わない。しかし自分に対しては正直だったと思う。嫌だと思うことはしてこなかった。
August 15
15/August/2025
Longest day in Japan's entire history
Writing directly flows into my psyche
9/August/2025
Her sadness, her pain, and her tears
文章は心に直接流れ込んできてしまう
9/August/2025
彼女のことは知らない。会ったこともない。声すら知らない。
Blue Dress
9/August/2025
A person whose heart is stolen by the pleasure of beauty looks attractive
青いワンピース
9/August/2025
余人には見つけられない美を見つけ、それに心奪われているような。
Something pure inside her
8/August/2025
I could not understand most of her talk
わからないからわかる純粋
8/August/2025
わからないからわかる純粋
Seen
6/August/2025
Gaze. Eyes. Force. Living Existences
視線
6/August/2025
命の無いものには何の力も持たず、唯一生きているものにだけ影響を与える。
Have a good day
5/August/2025
Positivity bounces back to us
Women sense my gaze
4/August/2025
It is what makes them mysterious
Sink Into Japan
3/August/2025
My mysterious urge
I need more sadness
3/August/2025
I need more
今日もいい日になる
2/August/2025
私が何もしなくても、世界が勝手にいい日になっていく
Intimate Temperature
1/August/2025
Anxious, how this momentary sensation will develop & rooted in me
Girl in a group
31/July/2025
Existing. Not engaging
I'm very scared of Tsunami
30/July/2025
Today’s two interactions with the opposite sex
A man gave way to me
30/July/2025
Believing this world once again
True Art Destroys One’s Hearts
29/July/2025
An artwork that gets rid of the meaning of my life
芸術至上主義
29/July/2025
芸術のみが生きる手段であり、生きる理由
Live Better
27/July/2025
Actively engaging interaction with the World through creative activities
World is a mirror
26/July/2025
You are me
I no longer believe, Life is limited
25/July/2025
Forever
A report: 'My life in a village'
24/July/2025
Life in the village called Kraków
Me & Her
23/July/2025
Eye crossed
My another beautiful day 3
23/July/2025
Life is limited. Life is not limited
My another beautiful day 2
22/July/2025
My brief existence here
My another beautiful day 1
22/July/2025
Morning came
A girl, bringing beauty to the world
22/July/2025
I found her unconfidence cute
Writing Fragments (12/May ― 18/June）
19/July/2025
some piece of writings
What we get What we give
18/July/2025
That's why we have to smile at others
Life Never Ends
17/July/2025
I find myself difficult to engage a conversation with others
人生の固有度が増す
17/July/2025
最近、他の人の話にengageすることに難しさを覚える
Our Life Purpose
17/July/2025
To fully taste this World with all our senses
鼻はもっとも贅沢な器官
17/July/2025
この「世界」というものを五感で味わい尽くす
Wet Eyes
13/July/2025
It is the beauty that can't be captured, can only be remembered, and with each replay, fades away
濡れた瞳
13/July/2025
繰り返すたび、かすれていく美
empty girl
10/July/2025
empty
With what I had sex?
9/July/2025
I will never comprehend other human being
love, again
6/July/2025
She picked up my shirt & ran after me
History means
24/June/2025
becoming history oneself
歴史を生きる
24/June/2025
30代とは、自分がたしかにある歴史の中を生きていると初めて実感する年代なのではなかろうか
Pretending like a human being is difficult
14/June/2025
if I am human being enough
body／soul
14/June/2025
my physical weight decreases, yet my existential weight increases
Butterfly's self-identity
25/May/2025
How can they believe it is the same soul and same existence?
蝶の自意識
25/May/2025
いも虫であった自分と、いま蝶である自分は同じだって、どうやったら信じられるのだろうか
I can't escape from myself
21/May/2025
It feels heavier & heavier with each passing year
IKIGAI in 1970s
20/May/2025
Now everyone talks about their Ikigai
Distance produces closeness
19/May/2025
Distance, absence, silence produces trust
Mishima in crisis
16/May/2025
as a 45-year-old middle-aged man
Dazai; Lack of magnificent reasons
16/May/2025
Dazai & Mishima are similar. Suicide
お友達だ
16/May/2025
俺とお前
One Sadness
15/May/2025
Time
Eyes of Japanese Women
14/May/2025
Sharpness
Silvana Mangano in Theorem
13/May/2025
Silvana Mangano
Loneliness as a foreigner
12/May/2025
Common/Romantic
Writing Fragments (14/December ― 11/May）
11/May/2025
some piece of writings
May 8; Victory Day
9/May/2025
80th Victory Day
Is sex really necessary?
7/May/2025
If we really need another confirmation
I’m thinking about you
6/May/2025
One night, she texted me
Every year around this time
4/May/2025
Black hair of Japanese women
Escape to the mountains
1/May/2025
Sake & Guitar
Too Late To Die
29/April/2025
Suicide is specially reserved for a young person
Snapshot of my life — 25 April 2005
25/April/2025
Train incident in Amagasaki city, Japan
Wordy Lyrics
23/April/2025
Modern Japanese pop songs
Spirit
20/April/2025
Born once／Die once. We are both under the same condition
'Living for a moment' miserably
17/April/2025
Nothing special
I can write only what I don't know
5/April/2025
I write
Close my eyes
29/March/2025
I can run away
Harmonious Beauty
27/March/2025
only distance, only harmony
Black hair + White shirt
27/March/2025
Beauty of Japanese women
Unhealthy vibe ― Kusaka Yoko
25/March/2025
committed suicide in 1952
Tsubaki Drops
11/March/2025
Tsubaki drops, not fall, with ominous sound
Desire is manufactured
10/March/2025
Only desire for fat & sugar is forever truth
From majority To minority To majority
9/March/2025
Imbalances between men & women
Men do not have to be conscious of being a man
9/March/2025
Imbalances between men & women
MOON
8/March/2025
I still remember that kiss
失った切実
5/March/2025
切実、去った
3 years
24/February/2025
I still remember all of them
日本人女性の印象
10/February/2025
清潔
blue, white, everything in between
5/February/2025
Primitive Landscape
原始の景色
5/February/2025
昔の人がこれを見て感じたこととまったく同じことを自分も感じられる場所
Living a woman's life
31/January/2025
My experiences are extremely tiny, extremely shallow & almost laughable
Why women are so pleasant?
26/January/2025
Woman's the cost & sacrifice to be pleasant
Time & Sadness: Belarus
25/January/2025
5 years for......what?
Fish look stupid
22/January/2025
Fish look stupid!
Hydrangea in mid-winter／真冬のアジサイ
20/January/2025
Existence／存在まるごと消える
Life is difficult
17/January/2025
No one has proven it to be true
Voice messages
16/January/2025
An invasion and lazy
Just a day passing by me
15/January/2025
Nothing is right. Nothing is wrong
End of 2024
31/December/2024
This year I came across quite many impressive artworks & beauties of this world
My Story of Eliza Pareńska（short ver.）
30/October/2024
Eliza's life／Eliza's suicide／Eliza's painting by Stanisław Wyspiański／Art & Life
My Story of Eliza Pareńska
30/October/2024
Eliza's life／Eliza's suicide／Eliza's painting by Stanisław Wyspiański／Art & Life
エリザ・パレンスカ（Eliza Pareńska）の話
30/October/2024
ポーランドの有名画家、スタニスワフ・ヴィスピャンスキの絵を通して知ったエリザ・パレンスカの名と、その自殺に終わる人生について
Jealousy with painters
20/October/2024
How can I hide my Silent Jealousy?
The World Is Filled With Beauty
26/July/2024
Now & Forever
世界は美であふれている
26/July/2024
これまでも、これからも
ねっとり
30/April/2024
赤いくちべに、濡れていた。ねっとりと
Lipsticks
30/April/2024
Her sensuality, exposed, overflowed & wet
my ephemeral, my ETERNAL
3/March/2024
Relationships are ephemeral, are ETERNAL
Ephemeral, yet Eternal
2/February/2024
Ephemeral emotion in us can be eternal. Ephemeral existence of us can be eternal
儚い。でも永遠
2/February/2024
その気持ちを正しく受け止めてくれる人に巡り会えれば、永遠になれるんだって
I am nameless
15/December/2023
I am nameless, but...
And I like you
11/September/2023
'Like'. This feeling always contains a certain sense of truth
『真実だったって』
11/September/2023
「好き」という気持ちには、なにか侵しがたいもの、高貴なもの、つまり「真実」がある
I still listen to you & I still like you
31/August/2023
You. Only thing that penetrates my 20 years
Can I still cry?
14/August/2023
How much pain, sadness, loneliness or happiness needed for cry
20 years of Emotion
6/June/2023
'I still listen to his music and I still like him'. This is the only thing that penetrates my 20 years
Innocent Ardency + Excellence = Beauty
6/June/2023
Accept only things that I find 'beautiful' & reject everything that I find 'ugly'
あこがれ ― 20年間好きな人
5/June/2023
あの人の音楽を今もまだ聴いていて、今もまだあの人のことを好きだということこそがただ唯一、この20年の人生の確かさを保証してくれているもののように思う。
Japanese has to be spoken timidly
29/April/2023
If it's spoken confidently, like we speak English, it just doesn't sound like Japanese
Feel Woman Most
20/April/2023
This is the moment I feel 'a woman' most vividly
女の音
20/April/2023
目でもなく、鼻でもなく、耳こそが女をもっとも感じる器官なのかもしれない。
Sakura: Momentarily yet Eternally
28/March/2023
A bit of an unfortunate year, Sakura falling quickly
Jealousy with drawing
13/February/2023
Last summer in Perast, Montenegro Saw a guy drawing a landscape
'I like rainy day'
10/February/2023
I didn't need her answer
Emotions Can't Be Summarised
3/January/2023
In a store, I always see books showing summary of famous world literatures
ART OF LIFE／すべてを破壊せずにはいられない衝動
26/December/2022
By quoting lyrics from the song, what can I tell?
'Loneliness in Tokyo is beautiful'
4/December/2022
What I've been annoyed in Georgia is stray dogs and Georgian men
I've been listening to your loneliness
30/October/2022
Remain this pain, sadness, loneliness inside me
Her Fragrance Makes My Soul Intoxicating
23/October/2022
Tanizaki said 'Alcohol makes our body intoxicating. Fragrance makes our soul intoxicating'