Jealousy with painters

We feel jealousy

if others get more
from the same things

In a cafe
And, if other person receives

better treatments,
more toppings,
nicer seat,
(& all for free)

Then, we must feel jealousy

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I feel the same jealousy with
people who have an ability to paint or draw

We are in front of
the same landscape
the same events
the same people

But
they have more intimate
more sensual
more indulging relationship with their models

They see more
They experience more
& They enjoy more

It means

They live a life more

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They get more
from this thing, called "Life"

How can I hide my Silent Jealousy?