I've been listening to your loneliness

Today is your birthday

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For 19 years

I've been reading your lyrics

I've been feeling your melody

I've been listening to your voice

What you gave me......
What you gave me was

Loneliness

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What you told me was
you have this loneliness too

To my younger-self,
knowing you also held this loneliness
knowing I wasn't the only one who felt this loneliness was enough

enough to feel relieved
enough to feel comfort
enough to feel tranquility with this loneliness inside me

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Today I finally know
your sensitivity,
your ephemerality
& your sense of beauty in your songs,

all come from this loneliness inside you

Now I finally know
your songs are all alone

And now I finally know
that's why nobody around me could understand the reason why I only listened to your music

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For 19 years
I've been reading your loneliness

For 19 years
I've been feeling your loneliness

For 19 years
I've been listening to your loneliness