by axxxm
Emotional Virginity — Everything we express turns into a joke
22/August/2025 in Kraków
The other day
I was listening to a radio programme by a singer I've liked for 22 years
And finally, I got the answer
to the question I had carried for 2 years;
He has the same view as I do
October 2023
one Japanese musician passed away
He was respected by many
A lot of tributes, grief, and prise appeared online
And everyone knew that
the singer who passed away & the one I liked knew each other
But my singer said nothing
No post. No tweet. Silence
But now,
from his radio words, I understood why;
He has the same view as I do
Anything written online — especially on social media
Even if it intends to be the "deepest feeling",
always some kind of "lightness" is felt
Feels like
"sincerity" or "authenticity" of the emotion is missing
This applies not only to such "online content"
Video, writing, speech..........all forms of expressions humans do
Once we express emotions,
we're inevitably conscious of others' eyes
This "Expressed thing" inevitably contains the element of "performance"
Fresh colour of emotions fades
Purity of emotions recedes
Emotional virginity lost
Emotions that we express
to the outside
to the world
to the others
are no longer equal to the emotions inside us
Mishima Yukio once said;
"Conversation scenes in novels always feel somewhat shallow"
He reasoned, "Probably it is because I am Japanese"
and added;
"In Japanese culture, the most important things should not be spoken, but only implied"
Deepest grief
Deepest suffering
Deepest gratitude
Deepest love.......
.......Is it actually possible, or even allowed, for human beings to "express" these emotions?
Once it's expressed outside, then
that is when everything turns into a joke
All of our sincerity turns into a parody
The only way to save the purity of our emotions must be;
Keep it to oneself
Never express
Remain silent
"Expressed things, particularly online, look 'less', or unserious"
This must be quite a common sentiment
Probably because,
we subconsciously wonder;
"Why did this person have to express such emotions to the public, not to his/her close ones in real?"
It is nearly impossible to find "something sincere" in someone gazing at a phone screen typing, or setting up a camera for videos
When we are completely taken over by our emotions,
can we really type words for a tweet or edit videos?
Have emotions ever allowed human beings to engage in such barren activities other than simply overwhelmed, devastated & totally destroyed?
