by axxxm
Something I've wanted to write about
10/February/2024
Everyone falls into speechless for a moment, when they know about a life of Mishima
Writing: Killing my hopes
7/February/2024
Writing can externalise things, visualising things in me
True Letter
11/December/2023
A letter is a snapshot of one's emotions
Photography I did a few years ago
21/September/2023
To extract beauty from reality & to compose another beauty
Meeting is not enough
19/August/2023
Writing for finding beauty
Complicated Relationship with My Language
10/May/2023
My relationship with Japanese language is very distorted
Japanese is not a speaking-oriented language
29/April/2023
Japanese always cut off a sentence & always put a pause between each clauses
Japanese has to be spoken timidly
29/April/2023
If it's spoken confidently, like we speak English, it just doesn't sound like Japanese
Objectivity & Subjectivity（part 1）
3/April/2023
Sometimes take a look at books about Japanese grammar
'Thinking' means 'Looking for words'
1/April/2023
Something appears in me Something I want to write about Then, which language to use for this?
My Avoidant Attachment Style with Japanese Language
29/March/2023
Over the past decade, when I was abroad, I desperately avoided Japanese people
Nothing but an impulse
6/March/2023
In a bookshop Saw a new book by Kayoko Yamasaki She is a Japanese poet & professor at the University of Belgrade
Unhappy in my life, but Fruitful in my diary
16/January/2023
Going through lots of emotional roller-coasters in 2017
Transience Beautifies Every Single Moment
15/January/2023
Without death, how can we try to live for this moment as much as we can?
Ephemerality of Relationships
12/January/2023
The more I meet people, the more I feel how ephemeral & fragile relationships are
Dealing with emotions with words
10/January/2023
Haven't made much progress these days Writing is such a rational activity
Avoid external things but juicy part
8/January/2023
These information is very important to draw the whole story we want to share, but it is not the most juicy part
Easy to be happy
6/January/2023
Easiest way to be happy
Void of being close to others
5/January/2023
You happen to meet someone and get a very good connection, but parted without exchanging contacts
Emotions Can't Be Summarised
3/January/2023
In a store, I always see books showing summary of famous world literatures
Most important thing to write down
3/January/2023
what are you writing in your diary everyday? This is the question I often get asked and I always answer, slightly hesitantly
Unhappiness Tells More
2/January/2023
Being happy is the most insensitive state of mind
Memory of 'Living in a moment'
1/January/2023
In the New Year, what we shouldn't do the most is probably reading an old diary
I still remember?
16/December/2022
Reading tons of memos I wrote in 2015 - 2017 while living in Amsterdam I always think I have a quite good memory and don't forget a person I go out with