by axxxm
Writing: Killing my hopes
7/February/2024 in Tokyo
Surely, writing helps us
Surely, writing gets something off our chest
And surely, writing can make us feel lighter & better
At the same time,
writing can externalise things, visualise things inside us
Writing, and then, reading what we just wrote,
can make sure,
can emphasise,
& can fix reality in front of us
Sometimes, I feel fear at writing things inside me
It is fear of pushing
a possibility,
a wish,
a hope in my mind
into dry cold reality
............And I'm remembering what Mishima said;
"Every night, I write. And by writing, I fix, confirm and end reality second by second"
For Mishima, writing must have meant;
Removing all "possibilities"
Discarding all "wishes"
Eradicating all "dreams"
And choosing something else
Facing reality
Facing the truth
Facing his own life
No matter how unacceptable it was
