by axxxm
10/February/2024 in Tokyo
Something I've wanted to write about for a while
Yet I don't know how
Death of Mishima
When we get to know a life of Mishima Yukio,
everyone falls into "speechless" for a moment
Even for 0.5 seconds,
everyone must catch their breath
No matter who she/he is,
they all become numb momentarily
Why?
This is the question
And its answer is exactly what I want to write about
Probably I know why
Probably, I don't want to know why, yet
For us,
just one case
just one example
just one exception\
is enough
to believe the most absurd thing
to change the view
to act differently
Just like,
if we see the dead person coming back to life again,
if we experience "magic",
then we can no longer see the world in the same way before
For Mishima
"To live as much as possible"
had the same meaning as
"To kill himself"
For Mishima
"To live to the fullest"
means
"To commit suicide"
In order to "live",
Mishima had to commit suicide that way
"Ridiculous"
"Too delusional"
"Too much nonsense"...........
I can hear these words now
And I do think it all sounds valid
But for Mishima,
without suicide, he had failed
without suicide, his life couldn't be completed
without suicide,
If he had lived long,
if he had died due to old age or illness,
it must have meant "Mishima"