1/April/2023 in Tokyo
"I am thinking" means "I am looking for words"
And this is the disadvantage when I write in English
"Writing in Japanese" or "Writing in English"
This is the question I often bump into
Something appears in me
Something I want to write about
Then, which language to use for this?
Sometimes I have no choice. The subject dictates the language
Sometimes I take time to decide. It depends on how important the subject is for me in the long run
Sometimes I can't really decide. Just start writing
"can't really decide"
Because each language has pros & cons
1 ― An apparent & significant advantage in EN is, I can share with a vast number of people
2 ― In JP, I'm comfortable with writing a relatively long sentence that still sounds natural & smooth, while in EN I tend to avoid one long sentence, and divide into multiple shorter sentences
3 ― In EN, it feels like my imagination reaches its limit much quicker & earlier
So my writing in EN would look somewhat dried, less lively, less "juicy" than JP
This leads to the next point
4 ― The other day I noticed I often looked up synonyms when writing in EN, while in JP I hardly did
"Synonym" is a word that has the same/similar meaning
Looking for synonyms is like a horizontal way of search
Moving my eyes to left/to right horizontally
I can only find words on the same horizontal line
However, what I actually want is not necessarily a word that has similar/same meaning
but a word, expression, sentence, multiple sentences, or even an implication that can express what I want to express
They usually don't exist on the same horizontal line, but somewhere in the space
To find, to access, to catch them, my eyes have to move throughout the space, horizontally, vertically, from back to front......as free as a bird
Let's say, in JP I can use "3 dimensional(3D) approach" that allows me to move every direction possible, but in EN only "1 dimensional approach" that allows me only a horizontal move, if this makes any sense
And this actually poses a serious disadvantage
We think in words
Words are a necessary tool for our thinking & imaginations
Try to find different words means
Ty to think differently
Try to see things differently
Can't fully make use of it in English
Probably that's why it feels like "my imagination reaches its limit much quicker & earlier"