15/January/2023 in Tokyo
For the past 7 days, writing about my life in Amsterdam in 2017
2017 was an emotionally disaster zone
from the very beginning to the end of the year
The below is 3 extracts from my diary on March - October 2017
• March 2017
Recently I said this a couple of times
"Human relationship, interaction, is based on very subtle, fragile elements and often it's easy to lose its balance"
• 10 September 2017
Relationships are based on something very subtle and fragile. And, although it takes a very long time to construct/develop, it collapses immediately & abruptly
• 15 September 2017
.....I was forced to realise even more that how ephemeral relationships are
I always think all kinds of relationships are based on surprisingly fragile, subtle elements. And once such tiny subtle elements work in a wrong way, everything collapses immediately. It's almost impressive to see how quickly a relationship disappears.
Just one action, just one word, is enough to destroy the relationship
The more I meet people, the more I feel how ephemeral & fragile relationships are
"The more I meet people, the more I feel how ephemeral relationships are"
This thought brought me two opposite notions
1. It increases an appreciation for my long-term relationships I now have with friends and others. It's not ephemeral, not fragile, but solid and deep
2. It is ephemerality that shines this moment in front of us. It is transience that beautifies this moment in front of us
Often one of prime characteristics in Japanese culture is said like this
"Finding beauty in ephemeral things"
But I'm sure it is an universal sense of human beings
Beauty of flowers, beauty of youth, beauty of life....., it's all appreciated precisely because of their ephemeral nature
Flower fades away
Youth fades away
Life fades away
Without death, how can we appreciate this moment in front of us?
Without death, how can we try to live for this moment as much as we can?
Without death, how can we find beauty in this moment?