by axxxm
Native English speakers irritate me
8/December/2024
No distance between words & emotions
Familiarity breeds contempt
22/November/2024
One of my favourite phrases
Fashionable men are not appreciated
15/November/2024
He doesn't love anyone else. He loves only himself
Everything related to confidence
13/November/2024
Too many people talking about confidence & too impressed
Jealousy with painters
20/October/2024
How can I hide my Silent Jealousy?
芸術家の夭折
19/October/2024
若くして死んでいるほど、彼が芸術に対して、人生に対して、誠実であったように見える
How people see me; Teenager's eyes
16/October/2024
Their eyes shows ambiguity
White socks as an accent
14/October/2024
Looks very clean
Man with abundant love
13/October/2024
wife, kid, dog
Artists must have an attractive look
10/October/2024
Artists have to be as attractive look as their works
Belarusian Pokémon
6/October/2024
In my eyes, Belarusian people still keeps some mysterious aura
Smile Battle
5/October/2024
nonsense
Forced Loneliness
4/October/2024
Uni students eating alone
final distance
3/October/2024
Distance produces dreams
I come to Poland to find a wife
20/September/2024
It was a joke, but now most appropriated
Knife & Fork
9/September/2024
Europeans using knife & fork looks too natural
Self requiem
3/August/2024
Celebrating her own death
nonsense
17/July/2024
untitled
I am a Neko!
1/July/2024
Neko
poem = death
1/July/2024
Poem／4／Death
Fictions: more real than reality
21/June/2024
All of her data gone, yet still her delusions remain
Autumn is Romanticised
21/June/2024
Intellectually, interesting. Emotionally, uncomfortable
Anouk Aimée
18/June/2024
mellow. adult. aura.
Reading a poetry
17/June/2024
Poetry is very eco-UNfriendly
Deep Communication
7/June/2024
They immerse themselves & have a deep connection
Cloudy Day
27/May/2024
曖昧さを許す
Editing the world
25/May/2024
Artistic talent or Creative ability. They all means editing／世界編集
how can we be?
20/May/2024
like you
Autumn is Romanticised（long ver.）
1/May/2024
Intellectually, interesting. Emotionally, uncomfortable
13 years
11/March/2024
11 March 2011
10 days
10/March/2024
Until 20 March 2024
ETERNAL
1/March/2024
ETERNAL
I am nameless
15/December/2023
I am nameless, but...
November: most depressing month
16/November/2023
Memories from nice beautiful autumn are still fresh, yet not ready
University Began
2/October/2023
They knew loneliness is not something they have to avoid. Rather it's comfortable, even friendly
Most Vulnerable Moment
24/June/2023
Any thoughts, any emotions, any memories can invade into our mind, yet we can't resist it at all
A middle-aged man has to be fat
14/June/2023
Excessive self-consciousness & sensitivity are suitable only for a young person
Our Perception
20/April/2023
A coffee served by a nice cafe staff. We have a good impression about this cafe Strange
Japanese Apology
17/April/2023
Unbearable mental weakness of being submissive spontaneously & avoiding all potential conflict by an apology first
Traveling with a book
11/April/2023
I always find hard to read it while traveling
Why are the Japanese so bad at English pronunciation?
8/April/2023
The reason is not Japanese has simpler sounds, but something coming from Japanese morbid mindset
Attractive Names
4/April/2023
The Tale of Genji's chapter titles all sound attractive
Visited the countryside & felt guilty
2/April/2023
Visited grandparent's place last month
A book about a man who got into cosmetics
2/April/2023
I was thinking women use cosmetics only for getting attention. Cosmetics are only about facial beauty
'Thinking' means 'Looking for words'
1/April/2023
Something appears in me Something I want to write about Then, which language to use for this?
Letter and Scent
31/March/2023
This close attention to details, this sensitivity, is something the Japanese in 21th century lost
Question on Literature Studies
31/March/2023
But at some point, I started to feel something unbearable in these literature studies
Difficulty in a long novel
31/March/2023
Feels like I want to celebrate that today I could finally finish reading this extremely long 11th century novel
Haiku poets in Russia
30/March/2023
Came across an interesting book. A collection of Haiku(Japanese style poem) written by 8 Russian ordinary citizens
42nd Chapter: The Tale of Genji
29/March/2023
More than 1 month has passed since I started The Tale of Genji, the oldest novel
Short stay in Nara
19/March/2023
My stay in Nara was quite short
Names contain more history
17/March/2023
Like Kyoto, many old names remain in Nara as a district name
White Russians
12/March/2023
Quite struggling yet still reading The Tale of Genji translated by Tanizaki
Youth
1/March/2023
Waiting as always at Starbucks in the central Tokyo at 21:30 Full of young people, around 15 - 20 y.o.
Reading Abe's memoir
28/February/2023
While talking, something unexpected comes out of our mouth
Unexpected things come out of our mouth
28/February/2023
While talking, something unexpected comes out of our mouth
February
20/February/2023
Towards the end of February, always some reluctant feeling is built up in me
Books to read after travel
18/February/2023
An autobiography by an infamous Italian seducer from 18th Century
Silence in the conversation
10/February/2023
I prefer to have a silence in conversation now
An Outsider Japan
8/February/2023
When exchanging words with local person in Kyoto, in a restaurants/cafes/shops/street, I often feel some slight embarrassment
Loneliness Foreigners Japan
7/February/2023
Over the past several years, foreigners in Japan always catch my eye
Foreigners in Kyoto
5/February/2023
One of the things I found nice in Kyoto is Faces I pass on the street are diverse Languages I hear on the street are diverse
Self Love
2/February/2023
When I go to other country, I always think what a horrible place Japan is
Kyiv―Yoshiko Sai―Etsuko Takano―Kyoto
28/January/2023
During my 1st visit to Kyiv, I often listened to 1976-released-album by Yoshiko Sai
'An Origin of 20 Years Old' by Etsuko Takano
26/January/2023
Past few days, reading a diary written by a Japanese girl Published in 1971 & became popular among the young
Why difficult to enjoy translated books?
25/January/2023
There are 2 reasons here
Too many hopes on youth's shoulder
9/January/2023
Today is national holiday in Japan A day of celebrating people who have turned 20 y.o. and welcome them into adulthood
Easy to be happy
6/January/2023
Easiest way to be happy
Moment & Emotion
31/December/2022
The below is an extract from my diary in March 2017
Cute skinny feminine Korean boys
28/December/2022
This summer in Sarajevo in Bosnia, I came across this street concert
About 2022
25/December/2022
This year will soon come to an end
Tanizaki and Lust
21/December/2022
So far I often mentioned Mishima here, so that I always missed an opportunity to touch another writer, Tanizaki, Will write a bit about him
Countries On One Continent
4/December/2022
Before coming to Tbilisi, I was in Georgia's 3rd city, Kutaisi, a very small town, for 3 days and saw a monument It said the Polish president during WW2, called Władysław Raczkiewicz, was born in this town
Things I dislike in Tbilisi, Georgia
4/December/2022
What I've been annoyed in Georgia is stray dogs and Georgian men
Desire for Eternity
26/October/2022
One of motive for creation is desire for eternity, ecstacy for eternity
Bosnia, Drama, Perspective
19/September/2022
We can easily find 'a drama' in Sarajevo, with a small amount of knowledge that an elementary school history textbook tells us
Queen's death and Me
10/September/2022
Yesterday was a bit strange day My 2nd book was based on my experiences in London where I lived for 2 years I needed to finish it by 8/Sep, because this day 10 years ago, 8/Sep/2012, was the day I left Japan for the UK and my London life began
Scars on the City, Sarajevo
9/September/2022
There is a big cemetery on the way to Yellow Bastion from Sebili It caught my attention because it looked very unusual Very unusual that such a big cemetery exists just 3min away from city's most popular touristic spot
Latin Bridge, First World War and Abe
7/September/2022
Here is where Austrian crown prince and his wife were killed in 1914
Bosnia and Ukraine ― Scars of memory
4/September/2022
When seeing the Bosnian flag for the first time, I thought about Ukrainian flag Just because, this blue & yellow color combination Such a petty resemblance In my original plan, Bosnia was not on the list
Mountains in Bosnia
25/August/2022
What I'm pleased in Bosnia is being able to see mountains Mountain is always tightly related to my memory of Japan because mountains can be seen almost everywhere there
My Thoughts about Shinzo Abe 3
14/July/2022
Watching the scene of ex-prime minister Abe's private funeral So many were gathering in the temple in the central Tokyo and so many shouted their thank you & gratitude to Abe
My Thoughts about Shinzo Abe 2
9/July/2022
It's been quite surprising for me after I wrote about Japan's ex-prime minister Abe last Friday
My Thoughts about Shinzo Abe 1
8/July/2022
I got lots of DMs about Abe, like 'News about him keeps showing up' 'Who is he? Is he a good guy?' 'Very unusual to hear gun incident in Japan' etc.
An Era of Emotion
16/January/2019
Soft man, feminine man, beta man etc......, many words are
Uncontrollable Nature of Life : Reading 'The Temple of Dawn'
26/December/2018
Today I started to read Mishima’s 'The Temple of Dawn'
We Live in the Middle of a Transition
21/November/2018
We tend to think that our parent or people in the past had more stable
'How to Die?' ― the 2nd Question
27/August/2018
The first question we face in our life is How to Live?
A Note from Summer
27/August/2018
Every single moments were as beautiful as my memories, as beautiful as she was, as beautiful as......