24/June/2023 in Tokyo
Most vulnerable moment of a day must be when we wake up
This is when our unconsciousness transfers to consciousness
This transition moment is like a vacuum of our mind
And anything.......any thoughts, any emotions, any memories.......can invade into this vacuum, into our mind, yet we can't resist it at all
Sometimes it feels pleasing
Sometimes it feels bitter
Even if this is something we don't want to remember, our mind is so unprotected, completely unarmed, and there's no way to fight against this invasion
During this morning's "dangerous" momentarily vacuum, I remembered a girl I met several years ago in Amsterdam
22 yo, from Spain, Moroccan root, studying biology in uni in Amsterdam
What came into my mind was not her face, not her name, but her hand
After an image of her hand came, I remembered her name, then her face
She had a beautiful hand
I actually no longer remember how her hand looked like
I don't have visual information anymore
but do have emotional information
A fresh sensation, that occurred when I noticed a beauty of her hand, still steadily remains in my mind
Does it have any meaning to my current life?
Does it push me to contact her, like "Hello! This morning I remembered your beautiful hand and you! How is it going!?"
Obviously, not at all
But something I still wonder is her reaction
If I had said "You have a beautiful hand" in front of her several years ago, how she would've reacted......how she was flattered & how she smiled at me with a slight embarrassment?