31/December/2022 in Tokyo
The below is an extract from my diary in March 2017
"At a castle in Bratislava Slovakia, overlooking the river
Far away, over horizon, there is a countless number of propeller blades of wind turbines
This is my first visit to this city and probably last visit
And I feel I can't waste any time, any moment
An importance of "moment"...
My age is an accumulation of countless moments
My life is an accumulation of countless memories
An accumulation of moments = time
An accumulation of moments = memories
An accumulation of memories = burden"
Reading these lines, I just thought how alike moment & emotion are
We feel anger, yet in the next moment, we smile
We laugh, yet in next the moment, we feel despair
Just like teenagers
We can't escape from this teenager-like unstable & uncontrollable nature, when it comes to our emotions
We can't control our emotions
When we feel something, we can try to ignore, try to forget, try to change it to other type of emotion, but the fact that emotion exists is unchangeable
When we feel it, it already exists and we can't undo
Similarly, we can't control "moment"
We can make a plan for something to do in 1 hour, in 1 minute, in 1 second
But we can't make a plan for this "moment"
Because we can't catch "moment"
It constantly comes to us, immediately leaves us behind and never comes back