11/December/2023 in Tokyo
Monday night, 11:35pm
I'm writing a letter
"If you write a letter at night, you should re-read & re-write it next morning"
Because "A letter in the midnight can be too emotional and/or dogmatic"
But I wonder,
if the letter, that is re-written in the morning, is really "better" or "more right" than the one from the night
Certainly, this "re-written letter" must be less embarrassing, less cringey & more acceptable than the one from the night
But can we really call papers filled with these despicable self-consciousness "a letter"?
If I'm the one who receives a letter,
what I want to read is......
Not about the promise for future,
Not about the regret from the past,
Not about their ugly self-consciousness,
But only about what they were feeling at the moment of writing
A letter is a snapshot of one's emotions
It is a feeling that I can feel only now
It is an expression that I can express only now
It is the truth that I can feel only now & I can express only now
A letter must be like this
And I will never re-read this letter tomorrow morning