I have to have sex with her

(*from my previous diary )

I'm supposed to meet her tomorrow evening

But I don't want to meet her

Because
I will have to have sex with her

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I already feel pressure for the fact that;

I will have to invite her to my place
instead of saying "Bye" on the street

I will have to have sex with her
instead of reading my favourite poetry

I will have to lie on the bed with her until the morning
instead of writing my diary

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I will have to do all the housework
after she vanishes out of my sight tomorrow morning

Washing the bed sheets
Cleaning the floor
Feel relieved to be alone.........

Only after these "tasks"
I can write my diary