by axxxm
Writing Fragments (29/July ― 5/August）
14/August/2024 in Kraków
29/July
How to live
for one's own ideal?
How to die
while keeping one's own ideal beautiful?
30/July
Matsuyama SALON KITTY
Shinsaibashi CLUB QUATTRO
Ebisu LIQUID ROOM
31/July
The way you write
The way you speak
The way you construct sentences
shows
The way you recognise the world
31/July
Take a tram
Cross the bridge
Feel like I go traveling
"肩にかけただけでも旅に出た気分さ"
1/August
I am a slave
I was bought by someone
Hate me!
Hate me more!
2/August
"Sadness" is, probably, a higher emotion
than other ones, like "excitement" or "happiness"
In order to feel sadness,
we need either experiences or knowledge
2/August
(August.........probably this is the month I have to think about you)
"What can I still trust?"
"Who can I still trust?"
Always
I come back to this question
And always
the answer is the same
I can only trust things that exist in my life for the longest period
I can trust only his music
I can trust only him
I trust only you
I still trust myself in August in 2003
It was the night that I met you
2/August
"I liked her more than I thought then"
is what I am thinking now
Probably I liked my ex-girlfriend more than........much more than........I could be conscious back then
I realised it now
Am I regretting now?
No
"Back then I was not conscious"
it means
probably I didn't like her as much as I am thinking now
Time
........the passing of time........
always beautifies the past
The past always looks more beautiful than it actually was
just like Mishima said;
".........How humans can live without an ability to forget & to beautify the past?........."
"Beautifying the past"
This must be the way to deal with our life, our human life
5/August
"Did she forgive me already?"
Sometimes this question comes to my mind
But actually
the true question I should ask myself is
"Did I forgive her already?"
