by axxxm
25/June/2023 in Tokyo
Something I can't appreciate enough for my life is
I was not born as a woman
No matter what happens........"reborn" or "reincarnation" or whatever........, I don't want to be a woman
I want to remain a man who can fully appreciate & fully receive things that only a woman can give
In a cafe, I was reading a book
A woman came & sat next to my chair
20 - 25 years old
Average height
Converse sneaker
White blouse
Black hair
........And slight perfume came to my nose
"A woman sat next to my seat"
This was all what had happened
Was there anything special here?
Not at all
But such a trivial ordinary thing the woman had done brought me a slight sensation
And probably the most important point was;
At that moment I hadn't seen her face yet
She appeared in a cafe, suddenly
She sat next to my seat, suddenly
And I was reading a book about suicide, quiet enthusiastically
No time
No chance
No mental space
to "check out" her face
But all elements around her.........fashion, moves, posture, way of behaviours, perfume.........indicated that her face is surely attractive
Yet, again, I didn't know if it was true or not
And actually, it didn't really matter
She already brought me enough delight
Just being there, just existing there.........vibe, air, aura.........a female existence can intoxicate a man enough
This is the intoxication only a woman can produce
And this is the intoxication only a man can receive & appreciate
And I don't want to be a woman
.........Then, I was remembering a love letter that Tanizaki (a famous Japanese writer in 20th century) wrote to his future wife in 1932
"I'd like to be your slave. Both physically and spiritually. Please abuse me as much as you'd like........."