31/August/2023 in Warsaw
Most probably I'm just too immature & absurd
Walking on the street
"Hey, you look very nice today! I like XYZ in your fashion!"
Saw a guy talking to a girl on the street
His talk continued......
Sometimes I do the same
because I find her fashion nice
Sometimes I do the same
because I want to talk to this girl
And sometimes I see other guys doing the same, like today
But always wonder
whether or not a woman is really happy to get a compliment from a guy who doesn't really dress well
if he really has a perception/sense to find other's fashion good, then why he doesn't direct the same sensitivity towards himself & gets himself dress well before giving a compliment to others
Receiving a compliment makes us happy anyway
The nature of the happiness is the same
But the level of happiness can be different depends on who gives the compliment
If he dresses well, I suppose, the level of happiness a woman could feel would be higher
Sometimes a woman gives me a compliment
At least for me, it feels better if the woman also dresses well
Because I don't have to think that above "unnecessary" question, as in;
"......thank you very much, but......why don't you pay the same attention to your own look......?"
A beautiful woman, walking with her boyfriend
I find her attractive
But I would feel slight disappointment with her, if the guy next to her does not seems attractive to my eyes, in my selfish, narrow-minded, narcissistic standard
Although I'm very conscious that what a man & a woman find attractive differs, probably my brain would still think;
"Her sense of beauty must be different from mine"
"It's obvious, because she chose this guy who I don't find attractive"
"This would mean she would not understand my sense of beauty"
"not only about one's appearance but also about other aspects of life"
"She does not........more precisely 'CAN NOT'......comprehend my 'effort' I invest into my life"
Sometimes I wonder if it's really worth spending some of my precious time with someone who does not share the same sense of beauty as mine
Sometimes I'm about to conclude that it's time-wasting to spend my resources with those who are blind with my sense of beauty
.........But I've been aware this is a very dangerous notion
I've been conscious that this notion easily leads me to a complete isolation
It is a pure impossibility of sharing the exact same sense of beauty.......or sense of value or sense of anything.......with other human beings
There is always a difference between me & others
And thus, hoping others to have the exact same things as mine.....
this could just mean total disrespect to other's individuality
this could just means complete denial of other's attractiveness
& this could just mean a proof of my immaturity & absurdity