ETERNAL ― alone

20th March, 2024

I bought his new album

"ETERNAL"

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Looking back

for this 21 years of my life

I could not meet a single person who liked him

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From time to time

I recommended his music

to my classmates
to my colleagues
to my ex-girlfriends
to my friends

There were a very few people who told me;

They liked one particular song
or one particular phrase of the song

But there was nobody who got an interest in him
as a person
as an entirety of one specific sense of beauty

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In this way

For this 21 years
I've been listening to his music alone

For this 21 years
I've been thinking about him alone

For this 21 years
I haven't been able to share the core of my identity with anyone

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.........Writing like this
might look like negative and/or sad

But the truth of the matter is

I don't really feel anything acute or poignant about this

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Probably I always knew...........

― His music is something
a listener can enjoy only when he/she is all alone

― His music is something
one can't share with others

― My emotion towards him is something
I can't share with anyone

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Probably I always knew...........

His music is the only thing that

accepts
embraces
& forgives

my loneliness of this 21 years

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The only thing that penetrates my 21 years