by axxxm
17/March/2024 in Tokyo
This ex-girlfriend
I was dating her a really long time
It was very short
Nothing deep
Nothing profound
Nothing memorable
But the breakup was very bitter,
just like any other breakups
Or perhaps, it was short, that's why, it was bitter
After the breakup,
what I was bothered the most was
Facebook
We were still connected
And every time I used Messenger,
I saw her online status,
which very much bothered me
I wanted to remove her from my Facebook
But I was hesitant,
as it was "cut the all ties" (IG or TikTok didn't exist then)
I still could not throw away "a hope" yet
This was the hope to reconcile & go back,
though I knew it was not possible
Thus, instead of me removing her,
I was hoping she would remove me
But seemed it would not happen
And this notion brought me some another bitter feeling
Because, her not removing me from her Facebook
it just looked like she didn't care as much as I did
She was not bothered as much as I was
Or, not at all
Her keeping me in her Facebook
it exactly looked like a sign of her indifference
How happy I would have been
if she had removed me from her Facebook
How happy I would have been
if she had blocked me
But it didn't happen
And seemed it would never happen
And it brought me even more bitterness
Some time needed to make up my mind
And I removed her
Since then,
I haven't heard anything from her
She hasn't heard anything from me either