Embarrassed by Myself

Came to a cafe (called Tociekawa)

Ordered a latte

"I will bring to your table"

Sit down & Waiting for 20 min

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I went to a counter
& asked a female Polish barista

"Excuse me, I ordered a latte like 20 min ago, but didn't get it"

........A couple of minute later,
I felt embarrassed about this attitude of mine

That moment
I didn't have an enough space in my mind
I completely lost a slight smile on my face
And instead,
my face was showing slight frustration

That moment
I definitely acted like "the customer" who thinks he can claim whatever he wants, just because he pays money

And, despite being in Poland
I was even comparing it to Japan

as in

".........If it's in Japan, they say 'I'm sorry ' before anything else. And then, start making a latte. But this woman in front of me said nothing. She said only 'Latte, medium size, normal milk? ' to make sure, and now making a latte"

".........Why am I thinking about Japan? I do know culture is different. I do know here is not Japan........."

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A couple of minute later,
a latte was ready

Another female barista came & said

"I'm very very sorry for this"
with an apologetic face

And the barista in the counter gave me a card, saying
"You can get a free drink next time"

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What I'd actually wanted was just one simple word;

"Oh sorry"

Yet, they gave me more apology as well as the card in the end

In this moment
a sharp embarrassment ran in my body

And as if hiding this shameful feeling,
I smiled & said
"Oh......., Thank you very much"

This smile of me was a result of
being a little overwhelmed by their attitude & service

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This was a little life lesson about

how quickly a tiny bad feeling can stole a tiny smile from one's face

&

how difficult to be cheerful all the time

&

how easily one's positivity can overwhelm & overwrite other's negativity