Insincerities with myself

Every time,
just before a relationship "officially" begins,
I do feel a quite strong hesitation

A relationship is where
I have to face many aspects of myself that
I prefer not to face

It means
when I'm alone, I am very good at
ignoring,
neglecting,
& forgetting
things in me that I don't like

Yet, when I'm with someone,
I can no longer ignore my own things that I hate

..........This just shows how insincere I am with myself

And highly like, with others