Melting Romance & Chocolate【4 years later】

2/January/2023 in Tokyo

"Melting Romance & Chocolate"

is what I wrote in autumn 2018 just before my ex-relationship "properly" started

We were meeting and/or dating, but still it was kinda unclear

One day she came back from her country and gave me a chocolate as a souvenir, and I wrote this in the next morning

Earlier I was eating a chocolate the girl gave me, and thought how alike a chocolate & a relationship are

When we put a chocolate into our mouth, it’s not sweet

Still dried. Still cold

Texture is rough like a stone, chocolate edges hit on inside our mouth

What’s worse, at this moment, we're not sure what kind of experience & pleasure (or nightmare) this chocolate will bring us

There is only an optimistic expectation: "This chocolate would be sweet"

But who knows?

Perhaps it’s an extremely bitter chocolate

Perhaps it’s just a blown rubber that erases letters on a paper

Perhaps it’s poison that pretends to be a chocolate

We eat a chocolate only with a hope that this might be sweet

We put it into mouth

Gradually edges get softer & melting, and gives pleasant touch to mouth

Taste slowly changes, more smooth & more mellow.....

This is when we realise it’s a chocolate that is sweet, neither bitter nor poisonous

Pleasure continues & increases

Then, if it’s a fine chocolate, there is a secret joy in it

As outer part melts, "a juice" slowly flows out

It is alcohol & brings us an intoxication

Fortunately it's only small portion, so just light & cheerful delight comes to us

But this is the luckiest scenario

It happens only when we meet "a right chocolate"

If we meet "a wrong chocolate", it never melt out in our mouth, it remains sharp edges and brings only constant discomfort & pain

Obviously there is no juice inside

Intoxication never flows out

.....While eating a chocolate the girl gave me, I thought for a moment if what I'm going to eat from now is "a right chocolate" or "a wrong chocolate"

4 years later, now looking back this, I can confirm the chocolate I ate was very right and it brought all kind of flavours to my life

Softness, sweetness, bitterness, intoxications & melting romance.....

I finished eating this chocolates a long time ago, but still, all tastes of her are vividly remaining in me, and certainly will be