by axxxm
Melting Romance & Chocolate【4 years later】
2/January/2023 in Tokyo
"Melting Romance & Chocolate"
is what I wrote in autumn 2018 just before my ex-relationship "properly" started
We were meeting and/or dating, but still it was kinda unclear
One day she came back from her country and gave me a chocolate as a souvenir, and I wrote this in the next morning
Earlier I was eating a chocolate the girl gave me, and thought how alike a chocolate & a relationship are
When we put a chocolate into our mouth, it’s not sweet
Still dried. Still cold
Texture is rough like a stone, chocolate edges hit on inside our mouth
What’s worse, at this moment, we're not sure what kind of experience & pleasure (or nightmare) this chocolate will bring us
There is only an optimistic expectation: "This chocolate would be sweet"
But who knows?
Perhaps it’s an extremely bitter chocolate
Perhaps it’s just a blown rubber that erases letters on a paper
Perhaps it’s poison that pretends to be a chocolate
We eat a chocolate only with a hope that this might be sweet
We put it into mouth
Gradually edges get softer & melting, and gives pleasant touch to mouth
Taste slowly changes, more smooth & more mellow.....
This is when we realise it’s a chocolate that is sweet, neither bitter nor poisonous
Pleasure continues & increases
Then, if it’s a fine chocolate, there is a secret joy in it
As outer part melts, "a juice" slowly flows out
It is alcohol & brings us an intoxication
Fortunately it's only small portion, so just light & cheerful delight comes to us
But this is the luckiest scenario
It happens only when we meet "a right chocolate"
If we meet "a wrong chocolate", it never melt out in our mouth, it remains sharp edges and brings only constant discomfort & pain
Obviously there is no juice inside
Intoxication never flows out
.....While eating a chocolate the girl gave me, I thought for a moment if what I'm going to eat from now is "a right chocolate" or "a wrong chocolate"
4 years later, now looking back this, I can confirm the chocolate I ate was very right and it brought all kind of flavours to my life
Softness, sweetness, bitterness, intoxications & melting romance.....
I finished eating this chocolates a long time ago, but still, all tastes of her are vividly remaining in me, and certainly will be
