Just being alive brings Joy of life

*Japanese ver

This week's biggest surprised

was

I saw Saito Motoaki in one YouTube video

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Mr. Saito is a specialist in super-computers & AI

which I am totally unfamiliar with

Mr. Saito was not/is not a well-known person in any sense

I happened to read his book in 2017
& got to know his name
& watched his interview video

And his intelligence & passion
as well as his calm, humble, polite attitude
impressed me

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At the end of 2017
Mr. Saito got into big troubles
& disappeared from the public space

And for 7 years, I wasn't sure
where he was
if he still kept pursuing his passion
or, even, if he was still alive 

Then, this week
I got all the answers

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That moment
some mysterious emotions ran in my body

"Sense of connecting my past with my present"

Connecting
2017 when I got to know his name
with
2024 when I am currently breathing

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How to call this feeling.........?

This is not "nostalgic" or "sentimental"

Because
this feeling surely contains undeniably intense "Joy" & "Pleasure"

which "nostalgic" and "sentimental" do not have 

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Recently, I was wondering
why "Dot connecting experience" feels so good

When we see the connection between things/events,
we feel this ecstasy-like Joy & Pleasure 

But why?

First thing I had to be aware was
"Time"

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At first
we can see only individual, seemingly-unrelated, separated things, called "dots"

Then, later
.......only after some time.......
we can see "the connection"

More than anything
"Time" is the necessary element to connect these dots

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Since time passes,

and also

Since I am still alive,

I can connect the dots
I can connect "my past" with "my present"

This brings a sense that;

― My past does not drift away
My past does not leave me
My past is still here. Still tightly connected to me now

in other words

― If things.......that initially look trivial & petty......, later gain the meaning and appear in the current timeline, 

then
there was nothing meaningless in my life so far

then
every little thing in my life so far has a meaning 

then
every little thing in my life so far is waiting for the meaning to be given
by "Time"

And it's all possible
by "Being still alive"

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Same emotions occur,
when we meet someone who we haven't met for a while

After many months/years,
why can we meet again?

Because
we are still alive

it means

"death" is the ultimate way to eradicate all possibilities
to meet again
to connect the dots

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Probably
"Dot connecting experience" 

― 1st
reminds us of "I am still alive"

― 2nd
brings us a sense of integrity & continuity of our life

― 3rd
makes us appreciate this thing, called "Life"

And ultimately
we feel Joy of life

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If we are alive,
........just being alive & just letting time pass........
then, automatically, we feel Joy of life