Too Happy

*Japanese ver

"It is a rather risky matter to discuss a happiness that has no need of word."
―Mishima Yukio "Sun and Steel "

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At 11am
In a cafe

These days,
Particularly in the morning,
I feel "too good"

Just because it's sunny
Just because air is clearer
Just because it's morning
Strange amount of happiness occurs in me

Even just seeing a beautiful sunset sky brings me this strange level of joy

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I am wondering;
"What is this, really?"

Nothing "too good" happened in my recent past

No particular "too good" prospects for my near future

Rather, actually
I keep postponing things I have to do
And so, "Frustration" is what I should feel

But what I'm actually feeling is

This "Joy of life"
This "Happiness of being alive"

And I don't feel hesitation to accept these "overly" positive emotions
& even express it to others

And I am wondering;
"What is going on inside me?"

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Since I left Japan,
I've tried to put a slight smile on my face when I'm out
(Reasons for this will be explained on another occasion)

At first
I "tried" to keep a slight smile

But now, it feels
this "effort" isn't much needed

Just by walking outside in the sunny morning brings me this weird level of happiness

Then
I just show what I feel inside to the outside world through my face

Perhaps
this "smiling practice"
..........which is obviously very unusual, very weirdo act in this country..........
would produce this sense of happiness in me

as they say

"Action causes emotion" or
"Take an action, then emotion follows" or
"Physical move creates emotional wave" or

simply put
"Muscle produces emotion"..........

..........Then
big macho Slavic guys must be the happiest humans in this entire planet🤪