Her Fragrance Inside Me

nonsense

'Like' is what brings meanings to our life

Elena

Beekeeping in front of the president's office

Impression on Estonia―Beekeeping

エストニアの印象―養蜂

my life has been dragged by images around this word, Eastern Europe

Impression on Estonia―Eastern Europe

「北欧」というイメージと、その違和感

エストニアの印象―東欧と北欧

We like everything in the world

人間はこの世界のすべてが好きなんだ

人間はこの世界を好きになるようにできている

I am a Neko!

poem = death

Japan is making a great success of 'brainwashing' people outside

Japanese people are confused. Very confused

Artist has to have an attractive look

All of her data gone, yet still her delusions remain

Fictions: more real than reality

Love; Shadow of a relationship

Hospital

Intellectually, interesting. Emotionally, uncomfortable

Autumn is Romanticised

Writing Fragments (28/May ― 6/June）

Anouk Aimée

Attachment with, memories with, longing for The First Experience

Karma

Reading a poetry

詩集を開いて最初に気がついたのは、空白の多さ

詩集を読む

Insincerities with myself

Lack of Cynicism

I was a woman and I had loved a man. It was a simple story. Nothing to make a fuss about

A Certain Smile

They immerse themselves & have a deep connection

Deep Communication

Poland: end of my decadence

確証がもてず不安だから念押ししてしまう

不安は饒舌にする

Ugly Suicide

'Knowledge is power'

Joy of Life

生きる歓び。作品との出会い。

生きていてよかった

Art and Romance. These are not 100% necessary for our life

Art & Romance

芸術とロマンス

既存の本が「真実」を語っていないと思うから。そして自分の「真実」を世に問うてみたいから。

本を書く理由　その３

本を書く理由　その２

「自分の気持ちを代弁してくれた」という瞬間をできるだけ多く、できるだけ深く味わいたいから。

本を書く理由　その１

書く理由

Looking for a book

Cloudy Day

嗅覚。絶対性の欠如した能力。

鼻：ゼイタクな器官

Artistic talent or Creative ability. They all means editing／世界編集

Editing the world

how can we be?

Mishima: Rejecting life. Tanizaki: Accepting life

Reaching the truth of life: Tanizaki & Mishima

詩は作者に興味がないと読みにくい。

詩が読みにくい理由

Just like, 'SEX' brings such colourful senses to us

Words are a compressor

朝吹訳は現代ではもはや読むに耐えないものである。私は河野万里子訳しか選ばない

『かなしみよ こんにちは』朝吹訳と河野訳を読んで

Traffic Light

「女性を知る」とは「女性との関係を知る」になってしまう

「女」を知ることはできない

Dealing with one's emotions = Dealing with one's own life

Writing for dealing with life

美意識。清濁まざりに混ざった混沌の奥深い色

点と線：作風の変遷を見るよろこび

秩序によってまとめられたもの（本）と、秩序のないもの（現実）

本を読めば読むほど莫迦になり

A novel that I wished not end, not finish but continue

'Bonjour Tristesse' by Françoise Sagan

久しぶりに出会った、読み終わってしまうのが惜しい小説。フランソーズ・サガンの小説

『かなしみよ こんにちは』を読んで

Unsolvable pain & pleasure from 'Bonjour Tristesse' by Françoise Sagan

Don't want to leave the world

Autumn is Romanticised（long ver.）

ねっとり

Her sensuality, exposed, overflowed & wet

Lipsticks

I want to talk only about you

Because it already exists in me before it exists in the world

This is our first meeting. But I feel like I met you before

I don't want to listen to this album, as if consuming something

Listening to 'ETERNAL'

Stealing

We end our relationship for now, but we will meet up again one day

Relationship that gives me a hope

The more beauty in his interpretation expands

Beauty doesn't exist

Things that cannot be summerised by any words

Something more important

ETERNAL ― my closure

ETERNAL ― alone

ETERNAL ― I know

ETERNAL ― 21 years

I feel like this September will come soon

9TO3／3TO9

Other's sufferings heal us

It exactly looked like a sign of her indifference

Wish to be removed from her social media

We Slept Because

Perfectionist, just because they don't have enough communication with other human beings

Perfectionist 2

I could have such a nice time in the past. Then, I will have another nice time again

Hope

Relationships are emotions

13 years

10 days

'love'

Rain stops

This is the reminder of her, of the time we spent time together

my ephemeral, my ETERNAL

Just listening, just nodding, eases and heals

A Little Text

After the breakup in 2020

ETERNAL

Perhaps she couldn't show the best or better sides of herself

She was not nice

my new ephemeral

2020201620122008

I feel sadness in a situation where I should feel anger

Sadness & Anger

Arigatou

2 years

I am anxious

New Sadness

Memory of ephemeral lily. My ephemeral lily

Ephemeral Lily

Where my emotions are gone?

Everyone falls into speechless for a moment, when they know about a life of Mishima

Something I've wanted to write about

Writing can externalise things, visualising things in me

Writing: Killing my hopes

Ephemeral emotion in us can be eternal. Ephemeral existence of us can be eternal

Ephemeral, yet Eternal

その気持ちを正しく受け止めてくれる人に巡り会えれば、永遠になれるんだって

儚い。でも永遠

Anywhere, but not here

I occasionally feel 'thirst' for his muscle-like sentences